“I came home to feel ugly again”

I’ve been quiet.  I realize this.  Day to day, I’ve been extra moody. I’ve had a lot on my mind. Things I’d prefer not to think about, if I could. And I try not to think, one drink at a time but eventually the buzz wears off. The nights ends and I have to go [...]

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Hallmark Day

I went to look in the card section out of obligation but every one that I picked up seemed trite and insincere. I won’t buy a card that says something I don’t feel. Not that I don’t adore my fiance’ but… I don’t have the need to express it in such decorative language. It’s unnecessary, [...]

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..Uh…Meh

We “celebrated” the new year indoors. It wasn’t much of a celebration at all. Not even obligatory consolation sex. Damn! (C, what do I have you for?) Just some cheap champagne and television. It could have been any other night of the week. Going to work was not an option because they weren’t open last [...]

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Follow Up

I spent the better part of yesterday brooding, as you can probably tell by my previous post. It was perfect weather to be sullen. It was around 3pm when some girl friends from upstate (Rutgers New Brunswick) called to tell me that they were in town and asked me to go out to an early [...]

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don’t let karma bite you in the ass: a rant

I don’t want to write about my personal life. I really don’t but it seems like the only thing I think about, no matter where I  am. I cannot make a single wedding plan as of right now and it’s not because of money. I cannot fake a smile at work for longer than mere [...]

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it’s evolution, baby

Where to start? I’ve spent several long hours in contemplation of where I come from, where I am and where I’m going. I stay in the industry because I’m not going anywhere without money. Basic needs must be met and then some. I am becoming aware that despite the fact I no longer work topless, [...]

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Burnt Bagels For a Scrooge

The holidays are fast approaching once again and I can’t really say I’m looking forward to them. As awful as it might sound, I just see it as a large drain on my already slim wallet and waste of time. Being not exactly Christian around Christmas time sucks because it means I’ve got to go [...]

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Sunday Morning

“I know who I am, but who are you? You’re not looking like you used to You’re on the other side of the mirror So nothing’s looking quite as clear Thank you, for turning on the light Thank you, now you’re the parasite I didn’t think you had it in you And now, you’re looking [...]

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Trepidation

I must admit, I meet a lot of cool, deep interesting people through work. I sometimes get so caught up in conversation that I forget that I am there to make a living, not socialize. Sure, chatting up clients is a large part of what I do but it’s not what I’m there for. When [...]

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Oh…crap!

This Monday, the 21st, was our 3 year anniversary. (C and I) We had prior decided to spend the day in New Hope, PA. It’s a place that holds a lot of fond memories for us and has some really awesome shops, including a medieval weaponry store which I frequently have to be dragged out [...]

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