I’ve been a bad, bad girl.

Yesterday, I stuffed weed into little baggies. It did not belong to me and I did not intend on purchasing any because I have a vagina and do not need to buy my own friggin’ weed. Apparently. The thrill of misbehaving is just enough excitement to keep me interested. The very idea that C would [...]

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Duds and other natural disasters

I never feel like making rounds anymore. So I tend to find one or two guys to hang out with but even that can sometimes be hard to do and I have to rule out the duds. Now you might be surprised at what I call a dud. A guy that is stuffing my bikini [...]

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Roughly a year’s worth of experience

Upon finally crashing into bed at 1:30 am, my brain kept going as usual and I nearly thought to drag myself to the lap top to write about something that I’d probably known all along but finally had the words to articulate it. For the first time, I’m beginning to think that perhaps I am [...]

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..Uh…Meh

We “celebrated” the new year indoors. It wasn’t much of a celebration at all. Not even obligatory consolation sex. Damn! (C, what do I have you for?) Just some cheap champagne and television. It could have been any other night of the week. Going to work was not an option because they weren’t open last [...]

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Please don’t ask me if I’m done my holiday shopping…

Because I haven’t even started yet! I do not even have the money for the rent right now, let alone the car insurance, registration, the cable, utilities… and so on. In fact, I will be impressed if I make enough for all of that, this month. “Why don’t you work a couple nights at EC?”, [...]

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To burn or not to burn my bridges.

To my surprise, I received a phone call on Friday from a new club that is opening in West Deptford, NJ. They want to come in for an audition next week and they offer health benefits to “qualifying dancers”.  I had heard about it through Craig’s List and had sent them an email with a [...]

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Why strip?

I think I may pen a book, someday in the distant future, about my experiences  as well as a sociological reflection on the strip club industry. We know why people go to strip clubs. Escapism. Novelty. But has anyone ever really explored the reasons that individuals choose to strip? The first answer anyone can usually [...]

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Materialism and Melting Ice Cream Cake

I went to see my family for one of my brothers’ birthdays today. He turned 16. He’s 6’4″! Anyway. I’ve always had my parents to blame for not being able to get a whole lot of financial aid when it first came time for college. But in recent years, I’ve been noticing more and more [...]

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Dancing behind the bar

I’ve been considering my other employment options lately. I’ve had a little knat buzzing in my ear, telling me that I should become a bartender. Why? The average starting salary is 50,000 a year.  It’s socially acceptable. I’ll still leave with cash in hand. I still get to be a part of the nightlife that [...]

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I should pull doubles.

With only three more work days available before the rent is due and only $360 left (necessary) to make, my stress level is high enough to look like PMS. (I had french fries for dinner! With old bay and american cheese dip. I dipped grilled cheese in cheese! For cryin’ out load! Yeah some of [...]

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