I’ve been quiet. I realize this. Day to day, I’ve been extra moody. I’ve had a lot on my mind. Things I’d prefer not to think about, if I could. And I try not to think, one drink at a time but eventually the buzz wears off. The nights ends and I have to go [...]
Posts Tagged ‘emotions’
“I came home to feel ugly again”
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged emotions, Relationships, the other woman on March 21, 2010 | 2 Comments »
Duds and other natural disasters
Posted in stripper, tagged Clients, emotions, money on February 28, 2010 | Leave a Comment »
I never feel like making rounds anymore. So I tend to find one or two guys to hang out with but even that can sometimes be hard to do and I have to rule out the duds. Now you might be surprised at what I call a dud. A guy that is stuffing my bikini [...]
Baring it all…
Posted in borderline personality disorder, tagged depression, emotions, mental, mental illness on December 20, 2009 | 3 Comments »
Emotionally, you perverts! I’m snowed in tonight and not glad about the fact. Days like today, there’s too much time to myself and relief isn’t coming soon. C’s decided to spend the night at his mom’s, which closer to his job, to avoid the potential danger of the unploughed snow. Initially, I was not pleased [...]
don’t let karma bite you in the ass: a rant
Posted in Rants, tagged emotions, love, Relationships, Risque, stripper, stripping, the other woman on December 5, 2009 | 2 Comments »
I don’t want to write about my personal life. I really don’t but it seems like the only thing I think about, no matter where I am. I cannot make a single wedding plan as of right now and it’s not because of money. I cannot fake a smile at work for longer than mere [...]
it’s evolution, baby
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged Champagne, Cheerleaders, emotions, Relationships, self-injury on December 2, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
Where to start? I’ve spent several long hours in contemplation of where I come from, where I am and where I’m going. I stay in the industry because I’m not going anywhere without money. Basic needs must be met and then some. I am becoming aware that despite the fact I no longer work topless, [...]
Oh…crap!
Posted in Life, Relationships, tagged emotions, engagement ring, love, Relationships on September 23, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
This Monday, the 21st, was our 3 year anniversary. (C and I) We had prior decided to spend the day in New Hope, PA. It’s a place that holds a lot of fond memories for us and has some really awesome shops, including a medieval weaponry store which I frequently have to be dragged out [...]
Another Tarot Reading of the Day
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged emotions, love, mental illness, Relationships, tarot on September 18, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
I always use the Celtic Cross because I usually get the best results that way. 1.) The main concern: Justice – Simplest answer is a fair result. Self-examination. A need t balance your life. A moral choice. Be careful when blaming others or the alternative extreme, believing that everything is your fault. Awareness/ Action. Taking [...]
Introspection at One A.M.
Posted in Life, tagged emotions, Strip Club on July 25, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
It’s late. For me, getting to one a.m. on a work night is a difficulty especially with my energetic style of dancing. I gave all I had. Time to recuperate. I drag myself up the steps of my back porch only to find the eerie light from the television illuminating the living room through the [...]
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